i'm doing this i'm doing this
mostly i would be making noises now if they could be conveyed via computer. but as they cannot, i am typing and draining and pulling from nonsense. i've had a fairly consistent headache for what seems to be weeks now... months? today has been one of fleeting perfection, the perfect solitude that comes with the company of animals, minimal computer usage, and a room of one's own.
i made note of decisions, conscious decisions- things that might occur automatically have today required intentional effort. move leg, eat some honey and cashews, blink, blink. and this, after days of the opposite- of quick and unhindered decision-making and physical labor- it catches me off guard.
i think about fixing the bio-let. the fan connections, the mapping and circuitry so pleasing. and now to some quiet backseat dream playing loops in the record-box brain. it's all a matter of time.
and these memories are false.
i forgot what i left out.