i thought she was joking

but who was i
in that moment
to ask?

i really thought she was joking
when she threw that venom
in the air

it was funny how she stood strong
and caught it in her mouth
gargling

but i knew she wasn't joking
when she turned around
and spit it out

imustbe

my own best friend-
i give myself very little
grief for not calling me
out and over months without
writing or being too busy
i see it's ok that i've accomplished
so little
so long

and here we are...

another step closer to further away;
eating with our hands the other's trail of don't wants.

i found you sitting on the bathroom floor with your head
in your hands and your face turned down.

what should i have said?

all i could think was don't think, don't think

and here we are closer, another step towards
walking away